i think, having lived in the US for so long, i still operate in some ways more on an American timetable than Canadian. so today, more than October 8, i find myself reflecting on thankfulness, gratitude, and what God has done for me.
as i was driving into work today, and listening to sermons on the radio, i thought about how negative my thoughts normally are. and what it would look like if i went to the opposites. if i let the opposites in my life attack the fear with faith.
not dating/no relationships –> more friends than i can count. real friends.
living at home –> i have a home.
took a job i shouldn’t have –> i have a job. and God is showing me ways out.
lived in fear for several months –> God showed me. now i have the opportunity to walk in faith.
i have the most unhealthy view of myself and my body. –> i am fearfully and wonderfully made. God is using the people and things in my life to bring me healthy perspective and healthy behaviours.
eeek! what am i doing with my life?!? –> i have degrees. graduated well. speaker, accolades, awards. all from the grace and endowment of God.
i have no network in Toronto. stupid choice to go to school in CA. –> every time i walk into a courthouse, i build a network. legit, i meet someone new EVERY single time who seems excited to meet me.
i miss my friends. –> again, i have friends. a lot of them. who care for me, about me, pray for me.
i have so much sin. so much. –> God’s grace is so much greater. the Cross is so much stronger. the resurrection brings so much more deliverance.
as i allow my opposites to attack, i realize that focusing on me reduces thankfulness. focusing on God – the ultimate opposite to my fear, flesh – brings more than gratitude. it brings action. change. and a lifestyle of thankfulness that impacts others.
i am thankful. God gives faith to attack my fear.